last month i became the official mom of a two year old. seriously how do these things happen? they really just creep up, one minute my baby was learning to crawl and walk and communicate then suddenly he’s two. he’s just the sweetest little thing in the world. and he’s growing up waaayyy too fast! seriously, walking into church today he said hi to EVERYONE, and he’s become so independent it’s sad. he’s blessed my life in so many ways as have his brothers. i could not imagine my life without my babies or my mister.
i was made to be a mommy and wife.
i’ll let that sink in for a moment, yes i said it, i was made to be a mommy and wife.
definitely not something i’ve felt for most of the last year but i think i’ve finally regained my footing in life, kicked that stubborn postpartum depression to the curb and started enjoying this life again.
once i figure out how to post photos on here in a wonderful fashion i think weekly i’ll just dump filbert 3.0s photos on here. but i really stink at things like that.
really this is just a check in post, i don’t have much interesting to post, and i’m full of ramblings, but hey the boys are napping and the laundry is folded so i had a few minutes to just chill with my thoughts, my happy happy thoughts.
good things that happened to me today
- i woke up, alive, and healthy
- my husband woke up alive and healthy
- my children woke up alive and healthy
- duck dynasty day
- lunch at my mommas
- the sun was out
- my house is clean enough and put together enough that i could have a lazy day
- tomorrow is my babies second birthday (when did that happen?!)
- my husbands grandma found out her aneurysm surgery worked and it’s shrinking
- snuggled and watched shrek with Luke
- loved watching him growl at the dragon
- i’ll get to cuddle up with my hubby in a few hours and sleep next to the best person that has walked into my life aside from my kids.
i’ve decided to abandon the ’50s housewife challenge. it’s doing absolutely nothing for my marriage, or family. and it’s making every one a little more miserable.
i have to stop being the wife and mom that i think everyone expects me to be, and just be me.
little ole music lovin’, jean and tee shirt wearing independent me.
i have prayed on it, and thought about it and i just think if i’m going to be happy then i just need to be me, and stop trying so hard to impress anyone. i have an amazing husband who loves me to bits, two beautiful living babies and one amazing guardian angel baby. i have been blessed to be able to stay home with my babies, learning with them, playing with them. i need to embrace that. i need to be happy in my skin, with my life, now. because tomorrow it could all be taken away, and i don’t want to live my life trying to fit into a mold, because it just isn’t me.
for the next few weeks or months or however long it takes i’ll be using this blog as a place to write down every good thing that happens to me, to us, in this life. to appreciate, to brag, to be positive.
I am starting this whole ’50s housewife challenge over. I wasn’t fully into it when I started, I was stressed about in-laws coming to town, and having the house presentable but not in order and clean so now I’m trying to get the disaster of a house together and organized and fully functioning. No more closing the kitchen and guest room doors when people are coming over, no more pile of dirty laundry that weighs as much as me, no more cluttered and trashed basement because if the tornado sirens go off I need a place to take the boys and be safe. Saturday and Sunday this week will be dedicated to putting the house together, decluttering, catching up on laundry moving the boys’ beds up to their new room, putting together our new room, and just getting in order. Monday through Friday will be focusing on getting the kids into a routine, there is so much chaos in our lives and no routine what so ever, and Saturday and Sunday will be spent relaxing as a familiy, and Lucas’ second birthday party. Then, on April 22, I will be starting the ’50s housewife challenge. I will strive to be a better home maker, work to have my husband feel relaxed and comfortable in our home, have our kids into a smooth and wonderful routine. I will take time to focus on being the wife God intended me to be, the wife that I should have been for the last three years that I haven’t been. I will put my God, my marriage, and my family before everyone and anything else.
Day three of the ’50s housewife challenge has stunk. bad. I woke up, only had one clean dress, and no clean pants, so i wore my clean dress, which was worn to a wedding so definitely not a housework kind of dress. I tousled my curls, and put on my make up, skipping my red lipstick ( seriously pretty sure that’s the reason I was slacking today ) and got Luke breakfast and did dishes from yesterday. Then Mister Wally woke up, and he was a grump…. which turned me into a grump, needless to say I ended up in leggins and an oversized sweater I’m pretty sure came from my brother.
I did however, clear out the sideboard in our living room, and our entryway closet, I still haven’t put everything back, but it’s something. And the dishes stayed caught up today. I still didn’t do laundry so I’ll probably stay in my pjs all day tomorrow or at least until I can get some laundry finished.
I guess day 4 will have to be the day it all clicks for me because it definitely wasn’t day four…
Today was day two of the challenge, still pretty challenging but better than yesterday. I woke up an hour before my dear husband did, fed Luke his oatmeal and did the dishes that were left over from last night, started diaper laundry (still hasn’t been finished), fixed spaghetti for dinner, fixed the babys crib that I broke yesterday, got the lunch dishes done and spent some time with my mister before he headed off to win the bread.
This is about the time Luke threw up. it threw the whole rest of the day for a loop, but he quickly started acting well again, so I assumed he had too many marshmallows and went about the day, I cleared off the sideboard in the living room, and put an easter decoration on it, and plan to finish decorating it after a trip to the antique store this weekend, I fixed the cuckoo clock which hasn’t worked in years, cleared out the hutch in the dining room that my momma left here (everything is still on the kitchen table) and then we went to the in-laws for dinner, which was especially nice since we usually don’t get out of the house during the week.
Once we got home the boys played, and just went down for bed, and I’m getting ready to finish up the living room so I can focus on the rest of the rooms of the house tomorrow.
My goals for tomorrow not only include getting even more effecient at the housework, finishing what I start and keeping the home in order, but being more patient with my dear husband. I am still lacking in the retro wife department, I did manage to get up and pull myself together before Mister Wally woke up. Which felt really REALLY nice.
I have a feeling this challenge is going to prove a lot more rewarding for our family than I originally thought. I couldn’t be happier.
whew, i’m tired today and i still didn’t get everything done that needed to be done. last night i was sick after eating some bad food so i woke up still exhausted two hours later than i needed to be up. but all things considered i think i did alright. i woke up at 930 with mr wally and got breakfast on, finished the diaper laundry that i started last night, got dishes from breakfast done, started baby laundry and picked up the kitchen a bit. then i started dinner which was ready and on the table at noon before the mister could complain about being hungry, and that’s about where i started to trickle off, i continued to switch and do laundry and pick up as we went as the day went on, moved the boys room around and put the rocking chair in their room, folded the laundry got the boys dinner and that’s it. i need to get better at getting started on housework right after tyler leaves for work since after the sun goes down i’m just useless when it comes to productivity. since i woke up with the husband instead of a couple hours before him i was in my pajamas until close to lunch which also screwed up my day. instead of waiting up for him i think i’m going to get to bed around 11 and just see him in the morning so that way i don’t wake up late, and he wakes me up to chat when he gets home usually anyway. i feel like it was a good first day, i suspect it will take some time getting used to not sitting down all day except to feed the baby but i’m hoping that by this time next week it’s all second nature.
things i will be working on tomorrow:
- continuing everything that got done well today
- our bedroom and bathroom need a whole lot of attention tomorrow so no days of our lives or internet browsing.
- today i was so behind i didn’t do the dishes right away after supper so it threw off the whole evening
- waking up at 7 instead of 930
i’m so thankful to have this blog to keep a record of this, and how it goes. i’m spending a lot of time hoping it does get easier as it goes on and that by the time easter weekend rolls around and we have family in town we are in the full swing of a 1950s family.